SEVEN DWARFS

OK so I am down to 4 tumors on the right side of my head and 3 on the left. The ones on the left are unattached and the right are still attached. The one next to my brain stem disappeared altogether but caused my brain to shift ore. I have a total 2 mm brain shift but no damage to my spinal cord.The last 2 weeks have been hard. I have not been able to work much. I have not been able to keep much food down and I am losing some weight, that the doctors are not happy about. The headaches are back on with a vengeance. My jaw sometimes goes numb and balance, well I am not falling but sometime I am such a angle that Shane is not sure how I am still upright.The catheter is gone. This has lessened the pressure in my head but it also took away mt safety net. Not sure how I feel about that yet. The hope is the 4 tumors will pull out with such force that they will correct the shift. I can't wait for that pain! My leukemia is bouncing between  12 to 20 on the white count. I am getting chemo 2 times a week and it is taking it's toll. I am tired, moody and just all around feeling of yuck! I have never really felt so bad to put myself in the I am a cancer patient role but this past week has firmly set me there. I am trying to get out of my funk. But it is hard. The headaches, the balance the bone pain the vomiting the fatigue is dragging at me. i want to go out on the weekends and do stuff with my family but I can't. It is too hot and the sun does not agree with my meds but oh how I would love to dive or get in a kayak with the rest of family and my daughter and have a good time. It is getting harder as Megan gets older to explain to her what is going on why Mommy can not come with everyone. Oh well just another hurdle to overcome. Again I ask how many do I have to do? enough pity party for me. I will keep fighting and keep you updated on my 7 dwarfs. Oh yeah there is no bashful he has been replaced by painful who I hope will leave me soon, you know Hi Ho Hi Ho it is off to work I go , I got a new song Hi Ho Hi Ho out of Julie's brain I go! OK that is my one lame ass joke. Best i can come up with. More later this week as I get a work up today.